That Movie

It was my first year in primary school. Out of all my friends, I was the only one who had not watched that compulsory movie. It’s not necessary, my mother said. The second year I asked her again. She answered, it’s not necessary. The third year, I was a bit older, and...

Father

Thinking of it, I realised that since I was a teen, my father never looked me in the eye whenever we talked. He tended to look at the television, the paper or out of the window when he was driving or being driven. We had very few opportunities to talk, as he worked...

West Papua, 1965

In 1969, Brigadier General Sarwo Edhie Wibowo went to West Papua after he had successfully annihilated the majority of those regarded as members of the Indonesian Communist Party in Central Java. He came to West Papua to lead the 17th Regional Military Command...

This Film

I was 9 years old, when this film was released in 1984. Without any discussions, we were sent to the cinema (after our parents were forced to pay for the tickets) and we were forced to watch this sadistic movie. For many nights, I had nightmares, but I was also sad...

Elections

When I was six, my parents and I moved to the Netherlands. My mother passed away there less than eighteen months after our arrival. Not long after she passed away, a friend tended to our garden. Months later, the garden filled with flowers in the most beautiful...